Take Me And Let Me In; Don't Break Me And Shut Me Out

One of those nights...i dunno if im manically depressed or if i just depend on others for my energy. The last week or so, I have been off the hook...very happy, bubbly, all that. And after a great day at work, i came home and got to see my Nonny. I was so happy then, too. But now, as i sit alone in my room i feel empty. could this be what daniel means? could this be what he goes through each moment that im not there? my mind is normally busy with something, whether its homework, class, work, or the desperate hopes of avoiding any of those things. and im always surrounded by people, even if its just Crystal. Even if we arent even talking to each other, i think that just having someone else around gives me a feeling of usefulness and purpose and that makes me happy as well as occupies my mind. But when im alone like this, especailly at night, and especailly after talking to daniel, i just feel so bummed. I just wanna be in the arms of someone who loves me...and i cant be with him until i go home again. i just wanna cry, but for what? am i lonely? how unstable am i if i cant go two hours without some sort of companionship? i mean, is it really necessary for me to have that constant of a reminder that i am loved? im so pathetic...