My brand new little niece person.
Friday, May 05, 2006
Monday, May 01, 2006
It Might Almost Be Easier to Throw All My Stuff Away And Rob Target In The Fall...
So...in two more weeks, it will be time to pack up all my junk from my room and head home for the summer. Besides the unpleasantness of having to pack up several months worth of junk to bring home, theres also the fact that I, myself, will be home. Ugh.
I rather like Aberdeen. Alot. And I like my friends up here. I don't wanna go back and have to live at Daniel's house with his whole freakin' family. I love them, but living there is getting increasingly annoying.
1. Their mom whines around about being a "slave", but she does it to herself! She always insists on making everyones food, doing everyones laundry, doing this and that for everyone. Then she whines about having to do it. Argh.
2. She hates my cat, just cuz its black. Fuckin' racist. She thinks that any time anything gets spilt, knocked over, or unsettled at all, its automatically Trixie's fault. I have seen her cat, Buddy, climb the curtains, climb the windows, knock stuff over, lick the dishes, and do all kinds of stuff. But if mom didn't see it happen, it must have been Trixie.
3. Mom's idea of training the kittens is to tell them, an hour later, what they did wrong. And maybe smack their butt. Erm...its not like a kid. You can't go up to them and be like "rememeber when you did this? that was not nice." You have to punish them immediately, or they wont know what they did wrong. Me and Daniel rarely see Trixie misbehave, cuz she knows what is not OK to do around us. Evidently, she doesn't give a crap what mom thinks, since she's *always* missbehaving around her.
4. I used to feel welcome at Daniel's house. Not so much anymore. And I want to be independent instead of getting waited on all the time, especailly since his mom likes to throw it back in our faces later on. But I don't feel comfortable acting like its my house. I only make my own food and do my own laundry when no one else is home 'cuz that's the only time i feel comfortable. So now, all damn summer, I will be stuck in an unwelcoming house, feeling like I must stay in Daniel's bedroom. Yay for summer...
So I guess that I really got of topic, huh? What I was really planning on going on about is how I don't want to have to pack all this shyt up into my car and take it home.
On a happier note, I'm gonna have my own room next year! WOOT!! I have no problem with 1/2 of the people I have roomed with. I just do not enjoy having a roommate. I am used to having my own room, and I rather like it. Here's another list:
1. Having my things where I like them.
2. Getting up without worry of disturbing anyone
3. Going to bed without feeling like I'm inconveniencing anyone
4. Having music or a movie on when I want noise
5. Have quiet when I want quiet
6. Privacy
7. Time to be alone
Absolutely no disrespeky to Crystal! I would much rather live with her than anyone else. And I'm really glad that her, Stacy, and I got rooms right near each other next year. Crystal summed it up nicely..."We can see each other whenever we want to, without being forced to."
I rather like Aberdeen. Alot. And I like my friends up here. I don't wanna go back and have to live at Daniel's house with his whole freakin' family. I love them, but living there is getting increasingly annoying.
1. Their mom whines around about being a "slave", but she does it to herself! She always insists on making everyones food, doing everyones laundry, doing this and that for everyone. Then she whines about having to do it. Argh.
2. She hates my cat, just cuz its black. Fuckin' racist. She thinks that any time anything gets spilt, knocked over, or unsettled at all, its automatically Trixie's fault. I have seen her cat, Buddy, climb the curtains, climb the windows, knock stuff over, lick the dishes, and do all kinds of stuff. But if mom didn't see it happen, it must have been Trixie.
3. Mom's idea of training the kittens is to tell them, an hour later, what they did wrong. And maybe smack their butt. Erm...its not like a kid. You can't go up to them and be like "rememeber when you did this? that was not nice." You have to punish them immediately, or they wont know what they did wrong. Me and Daniel rarely see Trixie misbehave, cuz she knows what is not OK to do around us. Evidently, she doesn't give a crap what mom thinks, since she's *always* missbehaving around her.
4. I used to feel welcome at Daniel's house. Not so much anymore. And I want to be independent instead of getting waited on all the time, especailly since his mom likes to throw it back in our faces later on. But I don't feel comfortable acting like its my house. I only make my own food and do my own laundry when no one else is home 'cuz that's the only time i feel comfortable. So now, all damn summer, I will be stuck in an unwelcoming house, feeling like I must stay in Daniel's bedroom. Yay for summer...
So I guess that I really got of topic, huh? What I was really planning on going on about is how I don't want to have to pack all this shyt up into my car and take it home.
On a happier note, I'm gonna have my own room next year! WOOT!! I have no problem with 1/2 of the people I have roomed with. I just do not enjoy having a roommate. I am used to having my own room, and I rather like it. Here's another list:
1. Having my things where I like them.
2. Getting up without worry of disturbing anyone
3. Going to bed without feeling like I'm inconveniencing anyone
4. Having music or a movie on when I want noise
5. Have quiet when I want quiet
6. Privacy
7. Time to be alone
Absolutely no disrespeky to Crystal! I would much rather live with her than anyone else. And I'm really glad that her, Stacy, and I got rooms right near each other next year. Crystal summed it up nicely..."We can see each other whenever we want to, without being forced to."
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Harry Potter's Autograph!
So this weekend, my dad calls me up and he's like "Hey, you got something in the mail from England".
It was an signed picture of Daniel Radcliffe, the guy who plays Harry Potter. Now obviously, its a photocopy...but I don't care! It's still got his handwriting on it.
It was an signed picture of Daniel Radcliffe, the guy who plays Harry Potter. Now obviously, its a photocopy...but I don't care! It's still got his handwriting on it.
Friday, April 28, 2006
Unnatural Banana Boogying
Am I the only person that is thouroughly kreeped out by the Peanut Butter Jelly Time banana???
That fucker is just weird...
That fucker is just weird...
Monday, April 24, 2006
Hi. My Name Is Dipshit And I Want Your Money To Spend On Prozac
Some people are way to freakin' perky. And greedy. And self-centered. And annoying. And hypocritical. And they are also named Ashley. I work with this chick who just annoys the *shit* out of me.
I don't recomend working at the NSU call center. It's a good idea, what they do. But the student suporvisors ruin it. Or Ashley does anyway. Let me explain what we do, first. We call alumni of NSU and ask them to please donate some money to various scholarship funds. (When you recieve a scholarship from NSU, we are the ones who make the money to cover it). What I don't agree with is the method and forcefullness we are "supposed" to use in order to get their money. We are supposed to lure them into conversation with us. Make them feel specail. Make them feel like we aren't only after their money. Then we move on to talking about the particular fund that we are raising money for at the time. Then we ask them to make a HUGE donation, at least 4 times larger than the last one they gave. If they haven't ever made one before, we ask for $100. If they say no, we are supposed to ask them for half of that. If they still say no, we are supposed to as for one quarter of the original amount. Then, if they still say no, we are supposed to ask *why not*. Then we let them know that we will be calling them again in the future. Goodbye.
What would *I* hear, if I were the one being called?
"Hello! You don't know me, but I'm ready and willing to waste your time tonight. Please excuse me while I ask you about your career, your kids, the weather, and a bunch of other shit that I really don't care about. Uh huh. Oh? Interesting. Well whatever. Anyway, we promised a whole shitload of people all this money, but we kinda don't have it. So, give me like, ten gazillion dollars. What? What do you mean you have 42 kids and you've just been diagnosed with testicular cancer? I'm so sorry to hear that, but what about a mesely 5 gazillion dollars. Would that be more affordable? No? Hey don't hang up. Just give me ten bucks. Fine. Whatever. But resistance is useless. I *will* be back. Don't bother moving and/or changing your number. I *will* find you. MUHAHAHAHA!!"
And so ya. Oh, and each person that we call has a sheet of paper and on that paper, we are to write the result of each attempted call. Mike, our boss dude, told us that if any of the people had any requests or questions, that we were to write them down on the sheet and every effort would be made to address the issue or answer the question. But its not like it matters, 'cuz no one ever reads the fucking comments anyway. The "student supervisors" are supposed to hand any sheet marked "directors attention" over to Mike, but they don't. And Ashley, OMG whenever I write anything down and she sees it, she acts like i did something wrong and like, "who really gives a shit what this person said". It pisses me off. And she is supposed to be there for us to go to if we have problems or questions (seeing as to how Mike is never there) but whenever i try talking to her, she treats me like I'm a retarded ferret or something and just laughs at me. Bitch. Oh! And today I found out that even if the person requests to be taken off the calling list, we still call them. How fucking rude is that??? My God. I hope they get sued. Thank god she isn't gonna be here next year. And she always used to get made at me and Crystal for talking at work, but then her and her little minions just fuck around all day on facebook. I hate her. And she's too fucking perky. Eww. And she always brags about how she has three jobs. Wooopdeedeedoooo!
OK. I think I'm done now...LA VIE BOHEME!
"My name is Ashley. I have three jobs. I'm awesome. I'm better than you. And my laugh isn't annoying at all. I'm too *cool* for the rules here. I just enforce them. And everything you do is all wrong. Unless, of course, I do the exact same thing. But that's different, 'cuz that's me. And I'm ASHLEY"
I don't recomend working at the NSU call center. It's a good idea, what they do. But the student suporvisors ruin it. Or Ashley does anyway. Let me explain what we do, first. We call alumni of NSU and ask them to please donate some money to various scholarship funds. (When you recieve a scholarship from NSU, we are the ones who make the money to cover it). What I don't agree with is the method and forcefullness we are "supposed" to use in order to get their money. We are supposed to lure them into conversation with us. Make them feel specail. Make them feel like we aren't only after their money. Then we move on to talking about the particular fund that we are raising money for at the time. Then we ask them to make a HUGE donation, at least 4 times larger than the last one they gave. If they haven't ever made one before, we ask for $100. If they say no, we are supposed to ask them for half of that. If they still say no, we are supposed to as for one quarter of the original amount. Then, if they still say no, we are supposed to ask *why not*. Then we let them know that we will be calling them again in the future. Goodbye.
What would *I* hear, if I were the one being called?
"Hello! You don't know me, but I'm ready and willing to waste your time tonight. Please excuse me while I ask you about your career, your kids, the weather, and a bunch of other shit that I really don't care about. Uh huh. Oh? Interesting. Well whatever. Anyway, we promised a whole shitload of people all this money, but we kinda don't have it. So, give me like, ten gazillion dollars. What? What do you mean you have 42 kids and you've just been diagnosed with testicular cancer? I'm so sorry to hear that, but what about a mesely 5 gazillion dollars. Would that be more affordable? No? Hey don't hang up. Just give me ten bucks. Fine. Whatever. But resistance is useless. I *will* be back. Don't bother moving and/or changing your number. I *will* find you. MUHAHAHAHA!!"
And so ya. Oh, and each person that we call has a sheet of paper and on that paper, we are to write the result of each attempted call. Mike, our boss dude, told us that if any of the people had any requests or questions, that we were to write them down on the sheet and every effort would be made to address the issue or answer the question. But its not like it matters, 'cuz no one ever reads the fucking comments anyway. The "student supervisors" are supposed to hand any sheet marked "directors attention" over to Mike, but they don't. And Ashley, OMG whenever I write anything down and she sees it, she acts like i did something wrong and like, "who really gives a shit what this person said". It pisses me off. And she is supposed to be there for us to go to if we have problems or questions (seeing as to how Mike is never there) but whenever i try talking to her, she treats me like I'm a retarded ferret or something and just laughs at me. Bitch. Oh! And today I found out that even if the person requests to be taken off the calling list, we still call them. How fucking rude is that??? My God. I hope they get sued. Thank god she isn't gonna be here next year. And she always used to get made at me and Crystal for talking at work, but then her and her little minions just fuck around all day on facebook. I hate her. And she's too fucking perky. Eww. And she always brags about how she has three jobs. Wooopdeedeedoooo!
OK. I think I'm done now...LA VIE BOHEME!
Friday, April 14, 2006
Baby, Baby
In the last few weeks, I have really been stuck in a rutt. I guess I'm just really annoyed with life in general. I have no motivation. In the back of my mind, I know why I'm living. I know why I'm going to school. Everything I do is in preperation for my future family. But I'm kind of an instant-gratification type person. School is annoying. My job is annoying. Everything is annoying. I feel like everything is useless right now. I feel like I'm just existing. Going to class and work are annoying little bumps in my useless existance. I really don't know how to express what is going on in my head. But I have figured out what the only solution is.
Give Me A Reason To Grow Up!!
¤Living for my kids. Helping them to learn. Taking them to the zoo, the park, anywhere! Spending time with them. Being there for them.
¤Running my house. My own house! Not someone's parent's house. Lounging around in MY living room. Doing laundry in MY washing machine. Washing dishes in MY sink.
¤Working at my CAREER, not just some shitty part time job. Working regularly, not just once in awhile. Getting a nice paycheck that allows me to do more than pay a couple bills.
Let's get this damn college out of the way!!! I mean, I TOTALLY love Aberdeen, andI love the friends I have made at school. I am so happy that I chose NSU. I'm really glad that I decided to go to college, beause if I didn't, I would be stuck at some loser job for the rest of my life. Talk about a buzz kill! But as it is, I have alot to look forward to. It's just hard to keep reminding myself about that when I am stuck waiting for at least two more years. *sigh*
Even my subconscience has been thinking about whole making-a-baby thing. A few weeks ago, I had a dream that I had a baby and we named him "Nero". I had never even heard of that name before! In, fact, I didn't even know it was a real name until about 5 minutes ago when I looked it up at www.babynames.com. A couple nights ago, I had another dream that I had a baby and this time his name was "Damian Luther". Damian is a name that Daniel and I chose, like, 2 years ago. We aren't quite sure on the middle name, but that's OK. We have at least 2 more years before we need to worry about that too much.
Dude, I'm scared to start planning a wedding though! There's so many little things to think about and plan! I'm so glad that Daniel's mom and I get along so well. She will help me figure it all out! Daniel and I already picked out our colors. Midnight blue, Black, and Silver. They look so beautiful together! And they are the colors that we ended up wearing to all 3 proms that we went to. Plus, they match Daniel's truck. *smile* I don't know who will all be in the wedding though. In addition to the best man and maid of honor, I want two sets of bridesmaids/groomsmen. I'm almost certain that the Crystal and Brian will be the m.o.h/b.m. but as for the others? I would like Stacy to be a brides maid, but I haven't decided on the other one. And I have no idea who Daniel will choose as groomsmen, especailly now that he is pissed at Travis (Travis promised Daniel that he would be in his wedding, then changed his mind). I wouldn't mind Levi being in it. He's cool. As for the children, I would love Michael to be the ring bearer. Flower girl? Hmmm...I'll have to think about that one, too.
Wow...this post ended up alot longer than I thought it would!! I guess that's what the boredom of Easter Break does...
Give Me A Reason To Grow Up!!
¤Living for my kids. Helping them to learn. Taking them to the zoo, the park, anywhere! Spending time with them. Being there for them.
¤Running my house. My own house! Not someone's parent's house. Lounging around in MY living room. Doing laundry in MY washing machine. Washing dishes in MY sink.
¤Working at my CAREER, not just some shitty part time job. Working regularly, not just once in awhile. Getting a nice paycheck that allows me to do more than pay a couple bills.
Let's get this damn college out of the way!!! I mean, I TOTALLY love Aberdeen, andI love the friends I have made at school. I am so happy that I chose NSU. I'm really glad that I decided to go to college, beause if I didn't, I would be stuck at some loser job for the rest of my life. Talk about a buzz kill! But as it is, I have alot to look forward to. It's just hard to keep reminding myself about that when I am stuck waiting for at least two more years. *sigh*
Even my subconscience has been thinking about whole making-a-baby thing. A few weeks ago, I had a dream that I had a baby and we named him "Nero". I had never even heard of that name before! In, fact, I didn't even know it was a real name until about 5 minutes ago when I looked it up at www.babynames.com. A couple nights ago, I had another dream that I had a baby and this time his name was "Damian Luther". Damian is a name that Daniel and I chose, like, 2 years ago. We aren't quite sure on the middle name, but that's OK. We have at least 2 more years before we need to worry about that too much.
Dude, I'm scared to start planning a wedding though! There's so many little things to think about and plan! I'm so glad that Daniel's mom and I get along so well. She will help me figure it all out! Daniel and I already picked out our colors. Midnight blue, Black, and Silver. They look so beautiful together! And they are the colors that we ended up wearing to all 3 proms that we went to. Plus, they match Daniel's truck. *smile* I don't know who will all be in the wedding though. In addition to the best man and maid of honor, I want two sets of bridesmaids/groomsmen. I'm almost certain that the Crystal and Brian will be the m.o.h/b.m. but as for the others? I would like Stacy to be a brides maid, but I haven't decided on the other one. And I have no idea who Daniel will choose as groomsmen, especailly now that he is pissed at Travis (Travis promised Daniel that he would be in his wedding, then changed his mind). I wouldn't mind Levi being in it. He's cool. As for the children, I would love Michael to be the ring bearer. Flower girl? Hmmm...I'll have to think about that one, too.
Wow...this post ended up alot longer than I thought it would!! I guess that's what the boredom of Easter Break does...
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Its Pie, And Chips...For Free!
OK. This was so awesome that I just had to preserve it, even though I really don't feel like typing. Let me begin by drawing your attention to the Geico commercial in which the gecko dude compares the Geico website to free pie and chips. And "Who doesn't like pie and chips? It's pie, and chips, for free!" Well my friends and I just love this, and so we went to our hall director's apartment and left him a note saying that we wanted to have a pie and chips social. A few hours later, we saw him and we were like "did you see our message?" He was like "Ya. The one about the squirrels and Pop Rocks social. And pigeons." (I will write another post explaining about the pigeons.) So ya, we had to tell him all about the commercial because he had never seen it, but then we discussed it, and we collectively decided that it would be cool to have a Geico social. He even said that he would let us host it. Neato!
Monday, March 20, 2006
I Didn't Recognise You Without The Handcuffs
OK. I hate musicals. With a passion. They are so fucking cheesy!! But I watched Rent, mainly because a HEAP of people told me that it was excellent. So I watched it. And at first I thought "what the fuck. this is the stupidest thing, although it is mildly amussing, in a retarded sort of way." But by the end, I was in love. I love Rent! And it has cool songs. Yes. Go see it.
*sings gaily*
To hand crafted beers made in local breweries
to yoga, to yogurt, to beans and rice and cheese
*sings gaily*
To hand crafted beers made in local breweries
to yoga, to yogurt, to beans and rice and cheese
Random Quotes
"If I was small, I would put on those little feetie pajamas that I got for Tilly"
-Wendy
"I wish I was alergic to Kiwi. They taste so disgusting!"
-Carrie
"I told him 'Fine! Just go and be a stubborn old man that yells at the kids to get off of his grass!"
-Tawnie (on the phone, talking about her friend, Jake)
"I have ONE piano keys, and I have to take it out EVERY day!" (you really would have had to have heard the expression in this one to find it funny)
-Me
"I'm PERfectly comfortable. (pause) mmHMM"
-A very drunken Marcus
"Come on, Kari. Masterbate later! I'm going!"
-Some girl out in the hall just now
-Wendy
"I wish I was alergic to Kiwi. They taste so disgusting!"
-Carrie
"I told him 'Fine! Just go and be a stubborn old man that yells at the kids to get off of his grass!"
-Tawnie (on the phone, talking about her friend, Jake)
"I have ONE piano keys, and I have to take it out EVERY day!" (you really would have had to have heard the expression in this one to find it funny)
-Me
"I'm PERfectly comfortable. (pause) mmHMM"
-A very drunken Marcus
"Come on, Kari. Masterbate later! I'm going!"
-Some girl out in the hall just now
Friday, March 17, 2006
I Finally Have A Hobby
I have liked arranging photos in photo albums for a long time. However, I was never any good at it! I have finally started "real" scrapbooking. It's awesome. I love it. I have learned alot about it in the last few days, and I'm happy to report that I made my first layout today, and it looks excellent! *grins* I can't wait to make a wedding scrapbook, and baby scrapbooks. *w00t!* At least I know that by the time that happens, I will be really good at it!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
I Fucking LOVE This Song!!!
(Bit from "Vermillion, Pt. 2" - Slipknot)
.
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She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, Shes a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
This first time I heard this, I couldn't believe it was Slipknot! This song is fucking beautiful!!!
My Baby Bellatrix (Trixie)
Funny true story: When we adopted her, the Humane Society told us that she was a girl kitty. So I made her my little princess. When we went to get her spade last week, however, they made an interesting discovery. She's got balls! Dun dun dun...!It would be to confusing for her to change her name now, and to hard for me to get used to calling her "him", so we are just gonna pretend like we never found this bit of info out. It's not like it makes any difference, anyway.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
The Prophet of Kessler's
Ian, Crystal and I went to Kesslers. There, we met the arch angel from Heaven. Aparently, he came down from the hills to Jeruselum. In Sioux City, Iowa, he was given a secret salt water vaccination by the government, but nobody knew about it. Nobody likes him here, mostly because they don't like the message his is bringing. He would go in to the store, but he doesn't know what he would say to people inside.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Don't Get Me Wrong
I know I don't blog nearly as often as I used to. This isn't due to lack of...anything. It's just, well, nothing that I have to say matters.
Monday, February 06, 2006
My First Day As A Rabbit
Well, I just started a new diet. A real diet. I am taking Slimquick pills. I'm eating healthy. I plan on starting at Curves this week. And I'm actually excited about it. I don't even have a desire to eat junky crap or drink high fructose corn syrup. Of course, this is only the first day...
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Changes....
Today was my last day at the day-care. OMG I dont think I even told you I got a different job, did I? OK first things first.
OK so I got a new job at the NSU foundation. Basically, we call alumni and friends of the university and ask for donations to various funds. Right now we are raising money for the Wolf Pact Scholarship fund, which is a new program for incomming freshman with an ACT score of 21 or higher which garantees them between $500 and $2000, depending upon the score, each year that they attend Northern and maintain a 3.0 GPA or above. (did that sound rehearsed??). I applied for this job beacuse I was basically gauranteed a position, and I was told I would get 9.25/hour. Not so. Not yet, anyway. You start at 7.00 plus incentives, and you get a raise for each year you work there. You work for a little over three hours each night. Oh ya...I also thought I would get to work 4 nights per week but then he hired too damn many people and so now I only get two nights. The whole point in getting this job was so that I would have more money, but then I quit the daycare (with both jobs, plus classes, I wouldnt have enough time for homework, leisure, or friends) and now im still going to be making around the same amount as before. I think its ok though...cuz I do like this job. Its more individual and I dont know...I just really like it. It's not that I decided to change my focus or anything. I loved the kids, and I still want to work with children as a career...I can't really explain it properly, I just feel like I want to be only working at the foundation for now. Besides, I'm taking an Observation class for my minor, and I have to spend 40 hours in a preschool for that, so I'll still have my kiddie fix.
Anyway, as I was saying, today was my last day at the daycare. I didn't even get to see my favorites. ( I know, "you shouldn't have favorites". Everyone does, OK? They just don't let it show.) So anyway...I decided not to go say goodbye to anyone because then I would feel sad. And I dont think I have the right to feel sad. It was my choice to get another job. It was my choice to quit at the daycare, even though they really needed me. I guess I just had some problems with it which I don't want to share at the present time. But I still talk to a couple people who I worked with, and I'll find out from them how everyone is.
Hmm..well I think thats about all I have for you today
OK so I got a new job at the NSU foundation. Basically, we call alumni and friends of the university and ask for donations to various funds. Right now we are raising money for the Wolf Pact Scholarship fund, which is a new program for incomming freshman with an ACT score of 21 or higher which garantees them between $500 and $2000, depending upon the score, each year that they attend Northern and maintain a 3.0 GPA or above. (did that sound rehearsed??). I applied for this job beacuse I was basically gauranteed a position, and I was told I would get 9.25/hour. Not so. Not yet, anyway. You start at 7.00 plus incentives, and you get a raise for each year you work there. You work for a little over three hours each night. Oh ya...I also thought I would get to work 4 nights per week but then he hired too damn many people and so now I only get two nights. The whole point in getting this job was so that I would have more money, but then I quit the daycare (with both jobs, plus classes, I wouldnt have enough time for homework, leisure, or friends) and now im still going to be making around the same amount as before. I think its ok though...cuz I do like this job. Its more individual and I dont know...I just really like it. It's not that I decided to change my focus or anything. I loved the kids, and I still want to work with children as a career...I can't really explain it properly, I just feel like I want to be only working at the foundation for now. Besides, I'm taking an Observation class for my minor, and I have to spend 40 hours in a preschool for that, so I'll still have my kiddie fix.
Anyway, as I was saying, today was my last day at the daycare. I didn't even get to see my favorites. ( I know, "you shouldn't have favorites". Everyone does, OK? They just don't let it show.) So anyway...I decided not to go say goodbye to anyone because then I would feel sad. And I dont think I have the right to feel sad. It was my choice to get another job. It was my choice to quit at the daycare, even though they really needed me. I guess I just had some problems with it which I don't want to share at the present time. But I still talk to a couple people who I worked with, and I'll find out from them how everyone is.
Hmm..well I think thats about all I have for you today
With You I'd Withstand All Of Hell To Hold Your Hand
Far Away - Nickelback
This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case
there's just one left
'Cause you know
you know
you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything
but I won't give up
'Cause you know
you know
you know
I love you
I've loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing
if I don't see you anymore
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away (So far away)
Been far away for far too long
But you know
you know
you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me
and never let me go
Keep breathing,
'cause i'm not leaving you any more
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and never let me go
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Take Me And Let Me In; Don't Break Me And Shut Me Out
One of those nights...i dunno if im manically depressed or if i just depend on others for my energy. The last week or so, I have been off the hook...very happy, bubbly, all that. And after a great day at work, i came home and got to see my Nonny. I was so happy then, too. But now, as i sit alone in my room i feel empty. could this be what daniel means? could this be what he goes through each moment that im not there? my mind is normally busy with something, whether its homework, class, work, or the desperate hopes of avoiding any of those things. and im always surrounded by people, even if its just Crystal. Even if we arent even talking to each other, i think that just having someone else around gives me a feeling of usefulness and purpose and that makes me happy as well as occupies my mind. But when im alone like this, especailly at night, and especailly after talking to daniel, i just feel so bummed. I just wanna be in the arms of someone who loves me...and i cant be with him until i go home again. i just wanna cry, but for what? am i lonely? how unstable am i if i cant go two hours without some sort of companionship? i mean, is it really necessary for me to have that constant of a reminder that i am loved? im so pathetic...
HOLY SHYT!!!
Today, Crystal, Ian, and I were going through the drive-in at McDonald's when we saw, no joke, at least 10 cops drive by in a little line with their lights flashing. DAMN! So we followed them. As we were doing so, we kept thinking "wouldn't that be great if the entire Aberdeen police department just got really bored, so they decided to go have a little parade and see how many people followed them?" They ended up all stopping in the area of some funeral home on main street. It was near The Last Chance bar, but that isn't where they went, just to clear that up. Anyway, they dissipated after like 10 minutes, and I dont know what was going on, but Im sure glad I got to see it!
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