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secrets i keep hidden...hidden from those who think they know me...no one knows me, not even me...isolating myself from the world...just let me sit in the fragment of reality that is my own twisted mind...allow me to live in my fantasy...allow me to live in peace, inviting members of my personal community in...one at a time...all i ask...please don't judge me...i do care what you think...i do...too much...just let me be...its my life...its my fantasy...if i want you there i will bring you to my world...ramblings...thats all this is...my mind forms thoughts...i feel detatched from the world...i feel so happy...living a lie...hiding...avoiding...running...trying to run my own life...my way...disregard for responsibility...no concept of time...becoming scared that it will all fall down in my face and the friends i pushed away will stand and laugh...

those that i care about may never know...i cant express my feelings properly anymore...love by domination...seems logical...doesn't really, but what do i know?

please dont leave me...know that somewhere deep inside this confused person is the girl who charms snakes...the one whom everyone loves...why do they love me?

what is so specail...i dont see it...all i see is me...and i am a psychotic confused mess