Where Have All My Homies Gone?

Last year, it seemed as though going to college meant leaving the large group of "siblings", friends, and acquaintances I had acquired since 6th grade. I tried to talk to everyone I could, as much as I could, before graduation. I knew that, as usual, I wouldn't see many of them during the summer, and that this time, I would not have the sense of security in knowing that we would be reunited in the fall. Instead, in the search for belonging in college, I would have to cling to the few I knew, whether I had ever talked to them in high school or not. It was a very scary thought!
Sadly, my goal of spending precious last minutes on the phone, staying up late, watching movies, and just being dumb with my friends was a battle I was trying to win alone. It seemed that no one really cared that I would be leaving them in the fall. Not even Tyler, or Christina, who were supposed to be my best friends. I know that Tyler has a girlfriend, and that he was trying very hard to spend a lot of time with her, as I was with Daniel. But when she went to Nevada for I don't even know how many weeks, it wasn't until she was on her way back that I even knew she was gone. If nothing else, I thought that maybe in a desperate search for company in the absence of his other half, he may have stooped so low as to call his BEST FRIEND to say "hey, what's up." at very least. But alas! No such luck for me. (I'm sorry Tyler, if you're offended by this sudden outburst. I still love you, but it did hurt my feelings). And Christina. Well, I know she was planning to come with me, and so I didn't let it bother me when she preferred to hang out with everyone else over me and rarely wanted to come to my house. After all, we were going to be spending the next NINE MONTHS together. I totally understood that she would see plenty of me and little of anyone else. The only reason this bothers me now is because I wonder if she actually did plan to spend nine months here with me. After all, she told her boss that she was going to a different school weeks before she told me that she was having second thoughts about our original plans. hmmm

Anyway, as it has been, the only people who call me are Katie (she's been addicted to calling me since middle school) and Stuart. When I call others, they talk and stuff, but its just not the same. Even Christina, who looked positively crushed when I left, handed the phone over to someone else after not even 5 minutes. I know that this is what happens when you move, but that doesn't mean I like it. Just because friends drift away doesn't mean that I can't try to hang on a little longer. It just seems that many of them favor going alone with the tide.